Going back in time: 2 weeks ago.

Going back in time: 2 weeks ago.

Going back in time: 2 weeks ago.

Going back in time: 2 weeks ago.

Going back in time: 2 weeks ago.

Ok, I realize I these last few posts are pretty sloppy, but I am getting behind in putting up some photos. I have some thoughts to put down about living and working in another country and culture, but they will have to wait.

Here are some photos from a trip we took to the Miranda Shorebird Centre. It is about an hour drive from Auckland. It is across the Firth of Thames from Coromandel Penninsula. The area is apparently one of only a few in the world that is called a Chenier Plain. Over time, heaps of shells are washed up on the beach, the heaps get so high that they eventually cut off pools of water from the ocean. These pools fill with silt and eventually become swampy land. Over time, more and more of these heaps of shells build up, creating a series of shell hills with intervening silt flats. Mangroves grow in these areas. The best views of birds we had was in a flooded farmer’s field, rather than at the centre.

A few more photos from Miranda

Going back in time: 2 weeks ago.

Tiritiri Matangi

Fantail

Fantail

Greg the naughty Takahe

Greg the naughty Takahe

Brown Teal

Brown Teal

Cabbage Tree

Cabbage Tree

Hihi and Stitchbird

Hihi and Stitchbird

Mary Pat and I went out to Tiritiri Matangi Island this weekend. It was about an hour long boat trip out to the island. It is a scientific reserve and allows up to 150 visitors a day to tour the re-established ecosystem. It was a farm up until about the 1970s and then was bought out by the NZ goverment. The non-native species were trapped and native flora and birds were gradually introduced. It is really an amazing place and is amazingly beautiful. Here are a few photos:

A Short Trip From Auckland

McKinney Kauri

McKinney Kauri

After 4 weeks in Auckland, we finally made a short trip away from the city. Driving here still requires a lot of extra concentration to stay on the “correct” side of the road. We did take a trip to Maraetai, but it completely wiped us out, both driver and navigator!

Ponga (Silver Fern)

Ponga (Silver Fern)

A Short Trip From Auckland

Today we went up to Kauri Park, near Warkworth, about 60 km North of Auckland. Aside from the daily natural beauty of the ocean, we haven’t really gotten out into any forest. Kauri Park has two very large Kauri trees and a short forest walk through some amazing forest (bush, as they call it here). There were magnificent ferns and foliage. We heard some unusual birds, but didn’t catch a glimpse of them. We also heard some cows at some point, which seemed strange given the really rain forest-like feel of the ecosystem. We did see quite a few Pukeko birds on the drive, but I still haven’t gotten a photo of one, yet. The walk was very invigorating, not very demanding, just a really nice introduction to the native plants.

A Short Trip From Auckland

Tomorrow will be the start of my third week at work. There is so much to say about that, but I’ll just post some photos from the day for now.

A Short Trip From Auckland

New Zealand: 2 weeks and counting

Rangitoto Island

Rangitoto Island

Well, it has been just over 2 weeks in New Zealand. The second week was much different than the first – less exploring (in a touristy sort of way) and more practical settling (e.g. looking at cars, shopping for things for the flat, trying to figure out how to get from here to there while staying on the other side of the road).

We hit some culture shock this week. In my brief personal experience, culture shock seems to be a situation in which you encounter a way of doing things that is different than the way you are used to doing them. It seems to be a bigger shock when you hit something about which you did not even realize you had a belief about. The more automatic a behavior is, the more jarring it can be when the way you are trying to do something doesn’t seem to fit with the new culture in which you are trying to operate. For me, it has been a gradual collection of little things that led to me feeling more irritable and pissy this week. I’ll go through a few of the glitches, as examples. The details may be a bit boring, but it is the details which reveal the lack of fit between different ways of doing things.

In New Zealand, any internet use is gauged in terms of the amount of data you intend to use. For instance, my mobile (cell phone contract comes with complimentary internet use, but I had to choose between different plans based on how many gigs of data I wanted to use. I had no idea how much data I used in the States. I was told that using skype uses up a lot of data. I got an upper end plan and I haven’t run out of minutes, although I am still trying to figure out how to use the internet effectively on my phone. I also got a mobile internet stick for my laptop.

[An aside, we had been planning on staying in a hotel efficiency for two months until all our belongings arrived. We spoke with my new boss about some different places that we could gradually check out to live in. We took the bus back toward downtown from my work place in Panmure and we stopped in a suburb (which is technically in the city of Auckland, unlike suburbs in the US that are separate cities) and we stopped in with a realtor who gave us a list of places. We walked down to the first one and were standing on the street looking up at the beautiful second floor flat when, lo and behold, the owner of the place looked down, out the window, and waved us up. It turns out she was waiting to show the place to someone else. We hit it off and talked about having shared relatives in Minnesota. So, we ended up getting the flat that day. We then had to contend with the fact that we have no furniture for two months, but that is another story. The moral of this story is that plans change and each time a plan changes there is a ripple effect that changes many of the earlier plans you have made.]

New Zealand: 2 weeks and counting

A different sort of duck

Since we were originally planning to live in the hotel efficiency, I got the mobile internet stick on a month to month basis. Since we had free, unsecure internet at the hotel, I got a lower data plan on the stick, since I thought I would just use it for any secure needs, like checking bank balances and paying bills. Well, once we moved into the flat, we didn’t have any internet, so we were using the stick and now it has reached its data limit for the month. We have been trying to get internet service at our flat, but this has been a long, involved procedure. Mary Pat was trying to get internet without a landline, but she kept hitting problems with this. (In general, things are more expensive in New Zealand and we keep having to adjust to this. It would be nice if I could give side by side comparisons at this point, but I have to admit that my mind has been unable to hold all these variables in place. Suffice it to say that our phone plan with a certain upper end internet data use is NZ$100, about US$70, that is the base rate and then there are various, byzantine charges depending on where you are calling. Right now we can call a landline in the US for NZ$2 for 60 minutes, we can then hang up and call again for another $2 for an additional 60 minutes, but if we call a US cell phone, it is something like 35 cents a minute). Eventually, she did arrange a landline and internet through Vodafone. Again, though, we had to choose how much data we wanted on our internet plan. As I am writing these things, I realize that to the reader, this could sound like me complaining about the routine hassles of life. My point is that in another culture, the routine hassles of life takes on new meaning because each routine hassle takes 5-10 times more energy because you have to figure out what everyone else here takes for granted. When I was explaining to Brendan, our friend at Vodafone, that in the US there are no data limits on internet use, he couldn’t understand it and kept asking questions about whether this was just a deluxe plan. The concept of unlimited internet usage did not fit his view of how internet services worked, just as our view of internet services doesn’t fit the way things work in New Zealand.

New Zealand: 2 weeks and counting

Pigeons in the Domain

A break from this. Right now, I am sitting at my favourite café to read or work at. It has a second floor. I look up and see part of Rangitoto Island, which is a common view around Waitemata Harbour in Auckland. I can see a couple of kites against a mostly cloudy sky, some watercolour-like patches of grey, some white fluffy, a couple of patches of bright blue. There are a few evergreens across the street. My favourite is a tall, sparse pine, I am assuming it is a pine, but I am not sure. It is a conifer, but it has long, thick, finger-like “needles” that seem to like to reach upward. There are a few pigeons flying around. I have seen a number of more exotic birds, although they seem to be fairly common here. One variety is a Pukeko, I might not be spelling that correctly. It is a bird about the size of a duck, with longer legs, that walks like a chicken, and has a blue head, quite a pretty bird, I have seen it on various New Zealand tourist items. I have seen a couple of herons, white-faced, I think. A couple of Kingfishers, which I quite like. Yesterday we saw a couple of varieties of oyster-catcher-like birds, one type all black with a long, curved orange beak, the other, pretty similar except it has a white breast and underbelly. There are some large crow/magpie looking birds that have an off-key, humorous song. We’ve seen a few of the New Zealand goldfinches which have a red head. I have also seen a few little greenish coloured birds that have prominent eyes, like a vireo, but smaller, maybe a Rifleman? I haven’t done much reading or identifying on the birds. As in the US, pigeons and English Sparrows are the predominant birds. Close behind are a couple of thrush-like birds that seem to be in the Robin-niche. One variety has white splashes on its wings when it flies, the other doesn’t. They look similar enough that maybe they are male and female of the same species?

I am not sure if I have commented on the weather. It is winter here, but that means maybe 45-65 degrees F, (7.5 – 17.5 C). The first week we were here, it didn’t rain at all, and we were kind of surprised and perplexed by that. Since then, it has been grey and rainy for the majority of the time, but even so, there are periods of sun most days. Yesterday it didn’t rain at all. The day before it was sunny and rainy, sometimes at the same time. One rainbow, so far, but this type of sun and rain would lead one to expect that they are common here. The thing that is different here (aside from it being beautiful and green in the winter, and that there is water and hills everywhere) is that people are in relationship with the outdoors in a way that they are not in the US. Even in a light rain people are continuously walking along the beach. All the restaurants and cafes here have French doors or large windows that are open, even during the rain. (I had spoken with an American physician who lives in Northland, a couple of hours North of Auckland, and she said she wasn’t used to being cold indoors and spent her first winter miserable and cold the whole time).

I have bought some outdoor, moisture-wicking undershirts that seem to help. You have to be prepared that you might get wet and when you stop in a store or restaurant that the doors may be open, even if it is 50 degrees F and damp outside. Even when you go home, there is no central heat, no storm windows, and places where you can see the outdoors through gaps in the windows. There doesn’t seem to be a concern about keeping the outdoors out and the indoors in. I am gradually getting used to this. Mary Pat is probably getting tired of me quoting something I heard on the radio in the US that I liked, “there is no such thing as bad weather, just being improperly dressed.” In New Zealand, I have read that if you complain about the weather, people will say, “stop your whining and put on another jumper.” I have learned that a “jumper” is a pull-over sweater. People will comment on how bad the weather has been, but they still leave the shop door open. I have seen a couple of people at work wearing fingerless gloves. The attitude seems to be to adjust to the reality of the environment instead of trying to adjust the environment to suit you. I spoke with an Indian cab driver who has a brother in Michigan. This brother was explaining that in Michigan, you can stand in your shirtsleeves looking out at snow and freezing weather and still be quite warm. It seemed like a strange concept to the cab driver as well as to his brother, a unique experience to see the cold and not to feel it.

Tomorrow is my first day of work. I am excited about it, but it is also sad that this time of transition of not working for the past couple months is coming to an end. In some ways the big adventure seems like it is over. I know that is not true in some ways, but in some ways it is. That is what this past week has been more about, settling in to a place. There will still be plenty of exploring and learning ahead, but it will be from a more stable home base and not from a place of being a wanderer.

Birds of Paradise and Palm in Albert Park

Birds of Paradise and Palm in Albert Park

Photos from whale/dolphin cruise

We saw a pod of Orcas, they were possibly eating sting rays in the shallows, the captain said.

The dolphins would “bow ride,” where they would race along under the boat and leap occasionally. They seemed to lose interest if we were going slow. The captain estimated we were seeing about a 1000 dolphins out feeding and he said this was a good sign for the health of the environment.

Photos from whale/dolphin cruise

Photos from whale/dolphin cruise

Photos from whale/dolphin cruise

Photos from whale/dolphin cruise

Photos from whale/dolphin cruise

NEW ZEALAND!!!

First photo...just landed!

First photo…just landed!

We have arrived in New Zealand after a series of delays while we were waiting for our passports and visas to arrive. We had to mail our passports to Immigration New Zealand in London to get our visa stamps. We had to delay by a week. Then our passports were supposed to be mailed back to us and we had to delay again another 4 days because our passports where apparently in limbo. We could use mail tracking from both the Royal Mail Special Delivery site as well as the United Postal Service. The Royal Mail site said that the package was passed over to the overseas division and the USPS tracking said that the country of origin was still preparing to mail. That was the message for 4-5 days, without any change. Royal Mail said that this meant that US customs had them in NY, but hadn’t released them yet. When we called customs, they used the USPS tracking and said that the “country of origin was preparing to ship. A week and a half doesn’t sound like a lot of time to delay a trip of this magnitude, but it was a daily waiting game and we were worried that our passports could have been lost since both sides of the Atlantic were pointing at the other. Apparently US customs can hold items for up to a week and they don’t have to admit they have the mail in question. It wouldn’t have been a big deal if we knew what was going on, but it was a nerve-wracking wait!

The trip began at 5 PM at O’Hare in Chicago, we had 45 minutes in San Francisco to catch our flight to Auckland. We left San Francisco at 11 PM CST, 12-13 hours later, we arrived in Auckland at 5 AM their time. We were in the night the entire trip from San Francisco. It was quite strange to fly across the entire Pacific Ocean and not even see it! The flight on Air New Zealand was long, but the service was impressive – two nice meals, very good service and food.

We have been in Auckland for a week now, and it has been very eventful! We have rented an apartment, gotten cell phones (“mobiles”), and opened a bank account. I had a tour of my new place of work, Manaaki House and met a slew of people there. Our days have been filled with various necessities (obtaining IRD #s, kind of like a social security number, it seems), exploring, wandering around, having great meals, doing pre-employment issues taken care of (they test for immunity for childhood diseases by checking blood titers, they don’t take for granted immunization records.

I find it hard to capture in words how amazing and transformative each and every day has been here. This morning I went for a very hilly jog from our hotel into the Auckland Domain, a large park in town. Yesterday I saw a wild parrot. We went on a whale and dolphin cruise the day after we got here that was truly amazing!!! We saw orcas and about 1000 dolphins. I will start a “New Zealand” section of this blog and I’ll post some photos from that day. Even though it is winter (40-60 degrees F), it has been sunny every day, clear, low humidity, pleasant (assuming the right clothing). While we have heard many New Zealanders comment on the “cold” weather, shop doors are open, side walk cafes are everywhere and people are using them. In fact, I am sitting outside right now. It is chilly, my hands are cold, but I am wearing several layers of clothes. Many places don’t have central heat or air, but some cafes have outdoor heaters.

Our apartment is beautiful and overlooks the harbour and an island. It has floor to ceiling windows in the living room, but doesn’t have any central heat, so we’ll be buying some space heaters. Our belongings are not slated to arrive until September, so we’ll be living a zen-like, spartan life for a while. The sun has come out from behind a building here at the corner of Quay and Queens street in downtown Auckland. The docks are right here. I just saw a “Maersk” container go by, same name we see in the States. There are stacks of containers by the dock.

People don’t seem as rushed here. We have noticed a big difference in shop clerks here, compared to the States, people actually talk with you and don’t seem to rush or push a purchase. All in all it has been a pleasant and positive experience for week 1!

The end is near (and so is the new beginning)

Well, it has been a very busy few weeks. The moving company packed up all of our belongings and today is our house closing. We are living in an extended stay hotel and then we will be wanderers for awhile.

There has still been a lot of work trying to do last minute sorting out of paperwork with the Medical Council of New Zealand, which our immigration visa is dependent upon, and which being able to ship our belongings depends upon. So we are in a bit of a high stress limbo at the moment, but it feels like things are just about sorted out now and hopefully everything will fall into place in time for our departure date for New Zealand!

I have been thinking about adding another section tab on the blog called Being Fully Human. This will be further reflections on topics from the class of this last semester. I do hope to be able to work the text and these reflections into a book at some point.

Aside from stressing about immigration issues, I have also started to have a little bit of space to start contemplating what it will be like living and working in New Zealand. There is not a lot I can actively do on that until we arrive there, but I can feel that work starting to gear up. Aside from learning a new health care delivery system, having fun, and exploring a new country, I am hoping to channel some of the energy that went into the daily running of my private practice into writing. I have been working on the draft for the Creating A Holistic Medical Practice book, whenever I get a chance. I feel like I have some new insight and clarity on the structure of the text and what I have written with the closing of my private practice and with the process of leaving the US.

Time to get going on a few things!

Dave

Last Day of Private Practice

5/17/10:

Today is the last day of my private practice which I started over 5 years ago. I started a private practice because I felt that I couldn’t expect an employer to pay me to spend as much time with patients as I wanted to in order to do the kind of holistic work I wanted to do. That is the nature of much of the health care system today, that a doctor’s time is so expensive that employers don’t want them to spend a lot of time with patients. This is the volume model of health care, in which the doctor sees as large a volume of patients as necessary (productivity measured in terms of “units”). Given that doctors are in short supply in many areas, and definitely psychiatry in central Illinois is under-served, this model is a good way of getting as many patients in to see the doctor as possible. It also maximizes profits for the physician and their employer. The question remains as to whether this is the safest or most effective model of practice.

When I started out in my practice, I took every type of insurance, no matter how low they reimbursement or how difficult the insurance was to deal with. Over a couple of years, I gradually dropped Medicaid, Medicare, and Personal Care insurance plans.

The reason I dropped out of Medicaid was that they wouldn’t accept my electronically generated billing forms. I had to hand write each form that I sent to Medicaid. Also, I had to wait up to 6 months sometimes to get paid, and when I did get paid it was about 1/4th of what other insurance companies paid. This just did not seem like an effective use of my time.

The next insurance plan I dropped out of was Personal Care. This was a private insurance company. When I had worked at a multi-specialty group practice, Christie Clinic, Personal Care was a high percentage of my practice, around 60%. My understanding was that Christie Clinic had created Personal Care HMO, this was then sold to Coventry, and Christie had a capitated relationship with Personal Care as preferred providers. Because of this, this was one of the lower private insurance reimbursers, but not as low as United Healthcare. The main reason I stopped being a provider for Personal Care was how difficult it was to appeal medication decisions and what I felt was an overly restrictive and even discriminative policy in regards to medication. I did not feel that the appeal process allowed for a physician to individualize treatment.

Personal Care also took the creative license to define any extended-release medication as a one pill a day medication. This was a perversion of the scientific language of pharmaceuticals. For instance, to prescribe Effexor XR 225 mg (the FDA allowed maximum for depression), a patient would have to purchase a prescription for #30 of Effexor XR 75 mg and #30 of Effexor XR 150 mg, with two attendant co-payments. If this was prescribed as Effexor XR 75 mg, 3 pills each day, the patient would be charged 3 co-payments for each 30 days or 75 mg capsules, the reasoning being that since it was an XR, once daily medication, that only one pill a day was ever needed and only one pill per day, per co-pay, would be covered. This situation was even worse for someone prescribed 375 mg of Effexor XR (the allowed FDA maximum for severe depression). A patient on this dose would be charged 3 co-payments to get their medication. It would require 2 co-payments for 2 prescriptions of 150 mg capsules and 1 co-pay for 1 prescription of 75 mg capsules. This did not seem fair to my patients and seemed, to me, to discriminate against people with more serious illness.

I filed 7 or 8 complaints with the Illinois Department of Professional Regulation about Personal Care, but the decision was that they were not discriminating, but were simply setting policies as was their right. This, in conjunction with a circular appeal denial policy (we are denying your appeal based on the fact that we do not cover the medication that was initially denied) I felt I was being forced to give care that was less than optimal, more expensive to the client than it needed to be, was disrespectful of physicians’ time, and was not responsive to reasonable requests for individualization of treatment. At that point, I dropped out of Personal Care, as I felt I could not participate in good faith in the system that they had set up.

At this point, in writing this, I am surprised that I automatically started writing about the business side of private practice and I wonder at my self, did I lose touch with the reason I went into private practice, which was not financial, but about providing quality care that was holistic and took into account the whole person? I would say that my commitment to a holistic treatment approach is even greater than ever, but that a lot of my learning in running a private practice was in other dimensions of medicine (taking a holistic look), such as healthcare delivery systems, economic issues in medicine, medical billing, medical ethics, and running a small business. These were not things I set out to learn about, but were necessary components of running any private practice, holistic or not. One thing that I really developed an appreciation for was on how the way a healthcare delivery system is set up greatly affects the kind of care that will be given within any system. I will go into this in more depth at a later point.

In regard to Medicare, I stayed in that system for about 3-4 years of my private practice. One reason that I am probably starting out writing about insurance is that I saw on the news today that Medicare reimbursements to physicians are slated for a 21% cut as of next month. This is one of the reasons that I stopped being a Medicare provider, every year I participated. The other issue is that there was the unfair and discriminatory policy that patients using Medicare for mental health had a 50% co-payment, whereas if they used Medicare for a physical health issue, they only had a 20% co-payment. This created an unfair burden on patients with mental health issues as they had to pay a much larger percentage of co-payment than a person seeing a doctor just as often for a physical diagnosis. This created a great deal of hardship for my patients who needed to see me more than once a month and pay co-payments out of their disability checks.

Again, I am surprised that in sitting down to write about my practice, I ended up first writing a critique of health care delivery systems. I am reminded of Foucault’s statement that the first responsibility of a doctor is a war against bad government (paraphrase from The Birth of the Clinic). I suppose that inherent in my desire to create a practice in which I could spend time with clients for medication management, psychotherapy, and healing, I was implicitly critiquing the health care delivery systems in which I had previously worked (academic, VA, multi-specialty group practice, community mental health).

What hits me at this time is the relationship between the structure of a health care delivery system model and the impact on what kind of care is possible within that model. In the volume model, a biological role for the psychiatrist is favored, because it does not require in-depth human understanding (which requires time), it only requires the ability to “read” and “interpret” symptoms that a human being exhibits and reports. (No wonder I am reminded of Foucault).

This awareness of the structure of health care delivery system models and the kind of care that is possible within those structures is very salient to me at this time with my impending move to Auckland, New Zealand, to work as a psychiatrist in a public health setting. I know that I will most likely not be able to provide direct psychotherapy or healing sessions with clients in this system, but I am curious to see what other kinds of care might be possible in a model in a socialized health care system. I really do believe that the “best practice” is also the most cost-effective model in the long run. Part of the crisis in American health care is that “best practice” is seen only in terms of short-term responses to medication and surgery rather than in the long-term happiness of human beings who are encouraged to reach their full potential. I am interested to see what might be possible in a socialized health care system regarding fully human medical care.

What are some of the core tenants of the private practice model that I have developed over the years? This is a good question and I imagine that these may shift somewhat over time. I would say that the basis of health is found in the full expression of each person’s humanity, or in other words, their Self. A short-hand breakdown of what this means is that optimal health would be found in a balance of physical, emotional, mental, heart, self-expression, intuition, and spirit, in each individual. Illness should be addressed in regard to these dimensions of human being.

This kind of work requires the input of time, willingness to listen, and patience on the part of the physician. On the part of the client, it requires engagement, responsibility, and honesty. The partnership between physician and client should include mutual respect of each other’s humanity (physical, emotional, mental, compassion, self-expression, intuition, and spirit).

I do feel that I was able to create a health care delivery system model in which I could strive to reach this ideal of human interaction in the service of health.

What are some of the shortcomings of my practice that I created? I would say that the first one that comes to me is around the issue of time. The more time I spent with clients, the less time I had for other things. An obvious statement, but one that created an ongoing dilemma that I tried to address in a number of ways. I am reminded of something from M. Scott Peck’s book, The Road Less Travelled, in which he complains to a supervisor that he is spending more time with his patients and all the other psychiatric residents are getting out of work earlier each night. His supervisor simply, says, “Yes, you do have a problem,” but just gives the dilemma back to Peck to solve for himself. This is the obvious problem of spending more time with clients is that there is less time for other things.

In the beginning stages of my practice, it was very important to me to learn how everything worked, even if I grumbled and groaned about insurance, billing, scheduling, and various administrative issues (I always loved having to go to the office supply store and would always make sure I had lots of different pens to write with, a geeky pleasure, but you have to find small pleasures where ever you can). At a certain point in my practice, these administrative issues were no longer supportive of my learning, but became things that I was constantly trying to fit in somehow into my worklife. I purposely write this as worklife, because this is what I really wanted in my life. I wanted work that was an expression and extension of my life. I successfully created this and then sometimes despaired that my work was always a part of my life! Another example of be careful what you wish for because you just might get it.

Time has been a central issue in my work. I started a private practice in order to spend more time with clients and this was also my biggest complaint throughout my practice that it was difficult to balance quality time with clients and having enough time left to in my life to attend to my own human needs. Some of this, I am sure, has to do with my own neuroses and personality quirks, that I often don’t feel that I am doing enough or working hard enough, but some of it is inherent in the health care delivery system model that I created.

I hired a part-time office assistant in the summer of 2009. The biggest help from this was that I could delegate certain things, like calling clients to move around appointments so that I could clear space in my schedule for other interesting or supportive things that came up, such as scheduling a massage, going to a talk, meeting a friend for lunch. Oftentimes, I would skip something I wanted to attend rather than face calling a number of clients to try to re-arrange my scheduled because I was already so red-lined for time. Time and space, these are two universal realities and dilemmas.

I realized that I really needed someone full-time as an assistant, but I realized even with the part-time assistant that I wasn’t really able to see any more clients, but “just” to have a better quality of life. This meant that the cost of the extra office and payroll came out of my current income. I was willing to take some cut in pay for better quality of life, but I felt that I didn’t want to take as big a cut as a full-time assistant would require.

I realized that one way to proceed with this was to partner with other health care providers who had a similar, holistic, philosophy. I looked into partnering with a nurse practitioner, but that didn’t work out. I did look into the possibility of starting a holistic health care center. I examined possibilities of creating a non-profit, but that seemed like it would be complicated if I wanted to work in the non-profit and also retain control over the direction it took. I feel like I was just really starting to look into these issues over the past year or so. I didn’t really come to a sustainable long-term solution in regard to the time issue, although with the decision to move to New Zealand, this no longer was a pressing concern as I shifted my time and energy to closing my practice.

This will continue to be a work in progress of re-evaluating my private practice and figuring out what I have learned from it.

Dave